lulu
i've forgotten a lot about the internet and my internet friends, i miss everyone a lot....lately i feel like shit, not physically or emotionally but my conscience is complaining about something. i feel very good but when i sit to think about it...it feels more like an utopia. my relationship with my friends is actually very good, even though i've been keeping them away a little, mostly because of my boyfriend, but i love them so much and they love me too, so i guess it's okay. the problem is, my boyfriend...he makes me feel too good, emotionally & physically. i think we're rotten now. even though we've known each other for like...3 years...we've only been in a relationship for like 7 months and we've already tried so many things. we havent had sex yet, mostly because we have lots of future we could lose, and we dont want to take any risk not even 1%...not to mention our religious views (even though, idk about him, but i dont really care too much about that). so, for some reason i dont get a good feeling from this...he tells me not to worry, to ignore it, and that it's just my crazy mind, but obviously i dont listen to him, as most men he's all brains and no intuition...
lulu
where i'm from, people tend to make jokes and stuff about boys and girls who are friends, like automatically label them as loversjust to be annoying.. there was some time when i had to deal with that but now that we're in senior year it doesn't really happen,,, however now i'm in a relationship with who's been my best friend these past 2 years and we get the same kind of jokes, it shouldn't bother me because it is true, but it does, because i feel like they are... degrading my relationship. PLUS i dont like the attention. when they are our close friends who make the jokes then there is no problem, but when others say it in an annoying manner, it feels like if our relationship is just that, a joke, and i'm pretty sure it isn't. i don't know if it's normal, but i have yet to tell my boyfriend about it







